Halloween is coming up and im pretty excited for all of the tricks and treats. as of the moment theres not much on my calender for that day, but i was invited to a party. the party is going to be at this girl's house with a ton of people that are in my grade. even some seniors. but a lot of my friends are seniors, like my older sister Hayden who isnt really my older sister, she just protects me like one, and my two friends Kevin and Jordan. oh, and their friend who is a junior Austin. but my best friend that i've known since i was to young to remember is Nicole, and she's a sophomore like me, except she's in collage and im in high school. so it's not really that exciting that theres going to Seniors at the party. they like to smoke and drink a lot so i don't think i'll go.
but thats not really what im uncomfortable about. my ex-boyfriend Mick is going to be there and he's not very nice. ever since i started dating Cory, my current boyfriend of almost 7 months, or you could say almost a year and 4 months... but i'll explain that another time when i feel its necessary. anyways, ever since i started dating him, Mick has been really mean to me, and to himself. but i did sort of lie to him a lot. he was my first time (and in case you don't know what that means or you just didn't catch the hint: i had sex with him) and i cared about him. he was the first real relationship i had in about two years. Cory was my first real relationship, and that happened in 7th grade. he never kissed me then (what a nerd:p jk). when Mick and i were dating, he didn't really treat me fairly, but then again i probably didn't treat him fairly either. i get really jealous of other girls, and i became very possessive when Mick wanted to spend all our time we could together. he'd even get upset when Nicole came back from her collage (which is four hours away) if i wanted to be with her. anyways, he did something so bad that i ended up calling Cory the night it happened when i got home at 11 pm. i hadn't talked to Cory for real in 2 years, but that night i called him and cried and asked for his help and protection. he ended up helping me see that i needed to break up with Mick. Mick was gone for Christmas break, which, by the way, is when all of this took place, and i told Mick that we needed to take a break until he got back. but when he got back, i broke up with him. but then i felt lonely and betrayed when Cory stopped talking to me, so then i started answer Mick's calls that i used to ignore and we ended up secretly dating again. but then i started realizing that this wasn't right, so i ended it again. but by then, i had ended up leading Mick on a lot, and he was really depressed. when he found out that Cory and i started dating about 2 months after i ended it for good, Mick started smoking and drinking a lot. he started saying really mean things to me, making me feel worse than i already did, and when my old best friend Kaitlyn started taking his side, i was really sad.
Kaitlyn and i met the same year i met a lot of my other friends, like Cory and Mitch. Mitch is my old best guy friend. he didn't like Mick when i was dating him, but now his "two best friends" are Mick and me. i don't see how these things happen but i guess they just do. anyways, i met them all in 6th grade when i changed elementary schools. i didn't have a lot of friends at my old school, so it was really nice having people notice me. anyways, Kaitlyn and i hung out a lot because she lives in my neighborhood. by the way, i forgot to mention that Nicole lives right next door to me, except when she's in collage.
Kaitlyn and i went a lot of places together and now we never talk. i think its been about 6 months. when i started dating Cory, she was really happy for me because she knew that i always sort of had a secret crush on him. but then she started hanging out with Mick with her little sister and her best friend and i felt really betrayed, so i stopped telling her about me and Cory since i figured she had better things to do. things started to get awkward, and one day i felt really hurt because i heard that Kaitlyn's best friend had started to "do things" with Mick, and i said some really bad things about her to a mutual friend of Kaitlyn and i. she ended up find out and yelled at me in front of everyone in the lunch room. we haven't talked since. she's had problems since the 7th grade with eating and anxiety and she missed most of 8th grade. she started getting better over the summer and she came back freshman year cuz i convinced her. now she doesn't go to my school anymore. neither does her little sister. i think about her a lot though. i don't know if it's just cause she lives a couple houses down, and my school bus passes her house everyday after school, or it's just cuz we were so close. Kaitlyn is the oldest sibling just like me. she has two younger sisters and two younger brothers. it goes Kaitlyn, Dayna, Mike, Ava, and their new born baby Declyn. he's not so much of a new born anymore though. it's really hard to come up with names for her family members because they are really unique. so i kept Ava and Declyn their original names. i watched Ava become apart of their family early in 6th grade and grow up and Mike get older, and Declyn become part of the family. i really miss all of them. Kaitlyn's mom too! Kaitlyn's mom was the coolest. when i was in my Green Day obsession years (i still would be if they didn't change a whole lot) her mom told me all this cool stuff, and even though i already had researched more about Green Day than she knew, it was still so cool that she knew all that. i felt really cool, really happy that it was like my second little family. and i saw that when Kaitlyn and i grew up and got married to the perfect men, that we'd bring out children over to each other's houses and we'd still be best friends. but we havent talked in over a half a year. we went a whole summer without talking when i let Mick get in between our friendship when him and i first started dating, but we became friends again. we always did. but not this time, i guess. this time it's been half a year.
i know im probably making you think i was closer with Kaitlyn than i was with Nicole, but Nicole and i are like legit sisters almost! she's been there through everything and anything. and she still is! but nows not a good time to explain her. i will another time ^^).
i feel the need to shove in one more thing about me. i love the restaurant Red Robin and they just built one on the mall territory near my town. it opens in the middle of November. Cory's birthday is the 26th of November. and so is Nicole's! they have the same birthday! crazy right?! so we might go there. we had to drive a while away for my 16th birthday, which was in September, because i really wanted to Red Robin but the one here wasn't open, so my mom took Nicole, Cory, and i over there. my little sister Evelyn went to. she's four years younger than me and we don't get along a lot, but she was nice... but still a little annoying. Nicole came home special for my birthday, and later that night was my homecoming dance. so Cory and i went. it was a really good birthday. oh, and as my birthday present i got this really cool laptop that im using to type this! ^^D
sorry this one is so long. the next couple of one's might be because i explain a lot of things you don't know yet.
-anastasiaphilips^^)
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